Yes, it still is

I genuinely don't know whether or not I am who I believe I am. I don't know if how I act with my friends is really me, or if once I'm back home leaving myself to rot in my room and do nothing is actually me. I rarely feel productive. I don't if I can stay true to myself every single day it's the same exact thing in school and home. The events you always hear on media are never good and this just causes me to spiral down to feeling like I shouldn't do anything at all because how is my life going to get better if every day I'm surrounded by topics I shouldn't be hearing.